Darkness to LIGHT
My story is one from darkness to light, from unconscious living to becoming awake, awake to who
I truly am, awake to my own thoughts, which create my life, awake to my inner conversations, awake to
how I be in this world.
To not share the darkness with you would be to deny half of my life. I want to share it all, so maybe,
you will see how by changing your thoughts, by first learning to love and respect yourself, your exterior
world will also change. We work from the inside out!
I grew up in Belfast, I am one from a family of nine children. I was a fearful child, always anxious about
life and the world I lived in. As I moved into teenage years panic and anxiety always seemed to circle me,
like vultures waiting to descend on the kill. I was sure the people on the train or bus could hear my heart
thumping or see my hands fill with little beads of sweat, often I had to get off the bus or train as panic overtook me
I had zero confidence, a low self worth and a feeling inside like there was a great big space, something missing,
like I was drifting in an open sea without a compass. I was lost. Oh I felt so insecure. Wrap all of this up, all that negative energy,
this is exactly what I was sending out into the Universe. We are energy, pulsating, vibrating energy, energy attracts.
Like attracts like! Like a boomerang, life gives back what you throw out!
I attracted relationships that mirrored the relationship I had with myself. Have you ever been on an emotional rollercoaster
with its highs and lows? When we talk of addiction we think of drugs, alcohol, gambling, shopping, but how often do we hear of emotional addiction? I was emotionally addicted, when things were good they were really good, and when they were bad they were really bad.
As Within So Without
And so you wonder, how did I ever get to where I am now? Well here is how! I began to take responsibility for my own life,
I stopped blaming my parents, my ex-husband, my ex-partners, the world and everyone else! Instead of looking at my exterior world
I started to to look at my interior world. As within so without! My interior world became my focus. I began to look at me!
I stopped criticizing myself, I had to learn how to love myself, because previously I did not know what this meant, and that is the truth.
I learned to listen and trust myself. I ask myself the questions, I listened to how I felt inside, I let go of limiting beliefs, I learned all
about the power of forgiveness, (that was really difficult) I forgave everyone, and yes the big one is, I forgave myself.
I learned to meditate, I spent time in silence, its where I get the answers, and still do.
Most importantly, I believed that I could change and I have. I navigate my own life, I do what feels right for me, not anyone else!
I have found the most amazing things out about myself! I now love life, I meet the day with gratitude and thank the
universe for another day to do my best. My journey continues, life brings many challenges, the difference is, this
time I have the equipment to meet them.
I believe there is a power greater than I am, I know I am divinely guided, I have had some amazing things manifest for me.
I now live my life according to the spiritual laws of the universe, and with persistence and faith wonders happen to me in
the most beautiful way. I have always been loved, now I truly feel it.
I truly am, awake to my own thoughts, which create my life, awake to my inner conversations, awake to
how I be in this world.
To not share the darkness with you would be to deny half of my life. I want to share it all, so maybe,
you will see how by changing your thoughts, by first learning to love and respect yourself, your exterior
world will also change. We work from the inside out!
I grew up in Belfast, I am one from a family of nine children. I was a fearful child, always anxious about
life and the world I lived in. As I moved into teenage years panic and anxiety always seemed to circle me,
like vultures waiting to descend on the kill. I was sure the people on the train or bus could hear my heart
thumping or see my hands fill with little beads of sweat, often I had to get off the bus or train as panic overtook me
I had zero confidence, a low self worth and a feeling inside like there was a great big space, something missing,
like I was drifting in an open sea without a compass. I was lost. Oh I felt so insecure. Wrap all of this up, all that negative energy,
this is exactly what I was sending out into the Universe. We are energy, pulsating, vibrating energy, energy attracts.
Like attracts like! Like a boomerang, life gives back what you throw out!
I attracted relationships that mirrored the relationship I had with myself. Have you ever been on an emotional rollercoaster
with its highs and lows? When we talk of addiction we think of drugs, alcohol, gambling, shopping, but how often do we hear of emotional addiction? I was emotionally addicted, when things were good they were really good, and when they were bad they were really bad.
As Within So Without
And so you wonder, how did I ever get to where I am now? Well here is how! I began to take responsibility for my own life,
I stopped blaming my parents, my ex-husband, my ex-partners, the world and everyone else! Instead of looking at my exterior world
I started to to look at my interior world. As within so without! My interior world became my focus. I began to look at me!
I stopped criticizing myself, I had to learn how to love myself, because previously I did not know what this meant, and that is the truth.
I learned to listen and trust myself. I ask myself the questions, I listened to how I felt inside, I let go of limiting beliefs, I learned all
about the power of forgiveness, (that was really difficult) I forgave everyone, and yes the big one is, I forgave myself.
I learned to meditate, I spent time in silence, its where I get the answers, and still do.
Most importantly, I believed that I could change and I have. I navigate my own life, I do what feels right for me, not anyone else!
I have found the most amazing things out about myself! I now love life, I meet the day with gratitude and thank the
universe for another day to do my best. My journey continues, life brings many challenges, the difference is, this
time I have the equipment to meet them.
I believe there is a power greater than I am, I know I am divinely guided, I have had some amazing things manifest for me.
I now live my life according to the spiritual laws of the universe, and with persistence and faith wonders happen to me in
the most beautiful way. I have always been loved, now I truly feel it.
In each of us there is a light, a divine spark, a power greater than we are
May you have the courage and strength to remove those dark shadows, let your light shine and fall in love with life.
Much love and blessings
Pauline
May you have the courage and strength to remove those dark shadows, let your light shine and fall in love with life.
Much love and blessings
Pauline
Studies and Completed Courses
Centers for Spiritual Living 2014 -20221
Louise Hay Licensed Practioner 2015
Mindfulness Diploma 2018
Usui Reiki Second Degree 2017
Centers for Spiritual Living 2014 -20221
Louise Hay Licensed Practioner 2015
Mindfulness Diploma 2018
Usui Reiki Second Degree 2017